Blog Tour: Maybe I Will by Laurie Gray

September 20, 2013

Title: Maybe I Will
Author: Laurie Gray
Publication date: March 15, 2013
Publisher: Luminis Books
Genre: YA, Realistic Fiction
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It's not about sex.

It's about how one secret act of violence changes everything--how best friends can desert you when you need them most, how nobody understands. It's about the drinking and stealing and lying and wondering who you can trust. It's about parents and teachers, police officers and counselors--all the people who are supposed to help you, but who may not even believe you.

It's about how suddenly all of your hopes and dreams can vanish, and you can find yourself all alone, with nothing and no one. Your only choice is to end it all or to start over... and all you can think is Maybe I Will.

Author Laurie Gray presents a compelling picture of the realities of sexual assault in Maybe I Will, drawing on her years of experience as a Deputy Prosecuting Attorney, dealing with crimes against children. The twist in the story is that we never know for sure if the victim is a boy or a girl, and we realize that it doesn't matter, because it's not about sex.
Dear Sandy,

It feels weird to be writing a letter to someone whose gender I do not know. But you know what? I'm going ahead anyways, because gender notwithstanding, I feel I somehow 'connected' to you on some level while I was reading your story. Does that sound bizarre? Well, maybe it is (it is, I know), but that did happen, so... yeah.

And in case you were wondering, Maybe I Will is truly ambiguous regarding your gender. Since I was inclined to think of you as a girl, I purposely adjusted my mind to look at you as a guy. And it still fit. Perfectly. Even the end, when you take into account the day and age we are living in.

Being a bookish person myself, I loved watching you use Shakespeare in your own life. Honestly, I've always been kind of intimidated by The Bard, and though I've read the works that are a requisite for anyone who can respectfully call themselves a lover of literature, I've never gotten what all the hype was about a few of his works. But after seeing them in your eyes, it painted a whole new picture for me.

Speaking of literature, dude (and although by dictionary speak, 'dude' is actually gender specific, I use it for everyone :D), your poetry is great! Not convoluted, it sounded like just another teenager trying to speak to another person, which just drove the message home that much harder.

I used the word 'connected' earlier. Did that sound presumptuous? (because it sounded that way to me) Let me explain myself. There is no way I can even begin to imagine everything that you have gone through, but there were parts of you that I could relate to, especially your poetry and your love for literature and drama. The following verses were my favourite among all your works in the book, because it's something I find myself experiencing increasingly often of late.

I have this feeling.
Somewhere in the universe there must be a word.
A word attached solely to this feeling alone.
A word that I could say, that you would hear,
Allowing us both to understand.

If such a word exists, it eludes me.

I’ve considered creating the word myself ...
but how would I explain its meaning to you?

Most books I've read on this subject take place after the act itself, so we dont get to see the immediate effects such violence has on a person. Readers will get a very raw image after reading your account of what happened, despite how rapidly it takes place, but I think that's probably necessary. For us to be able to deal with the consequences in a manner suiting the enormity of the violence, we have to be able to understand it, and I think accounts such as yours will open our eyes to the brutality that is felt.

Shanika sounds like a great friend. I'd love to hear more about her, if you're planning to write anything anytime. I certainly didn't expect Cassie or Troy (especially Troy) to behave they way they did, but I guess that's one great thing about difficult times. It puts friendships to the test and only the ones who emerge unscathed from it and your true friends.

The book reminded me a lot of Laurie Halse Anderson's Speak. But where Speak has an almost ethereal quality to it (which works wonders for Speak), Maybe I Will comes across as straightforward and grounded.

Maybe I Will ended in a positive note. I'm hoping that was a glimpse into your future, or rather, present, and you've healed now and come through as a stronger human being.

Keep strong.

And Kudos!

Fahima
INTERVIEW WITH LAURIE GRAY

Laurie gray, the author of Maybe I Will, dropped by by for a visit and offered to answer some questions. Yay! Find below my interview with her.

Q: I know you probably get asked this question a lot, but... Where did you get your inspiration for Maybe I Will from?
It started as two completely separate ideas that somehow merged into one. The first one was the poem “My Character”  in Chapter 13, which I actually wrote when I was in high school, but shared with my writers group back in 2006. As we talked about the poem, one of my writer friends said she thought there was enough there for a novel. I started reading The Complete Works of Shakespeare and thinking about character and how an unexpected trauma can affect our character.  At the same time I was working as a deputy prosecuting attorney assigned to juvenile sex offenses and our local drug court and I found myself asking whether I would handle a case differently if the defendant/victim’s gender were reversed. I started thinking about gender bias in our society and how we judge people differently and have different expectations for people based on their gender. Rather than writing about gender, it occurred to me to write in the first person without ever identifying the main character’s gender and just let people see for themselves if Sandy’s gender mattered to them.


Q: What made you take the unique approach towards Maybe I Will, in which the gender of the victim is not mentioned?
As I was developing the two ideas above, I started thinking about gender bias in our society and how we judge people differently and have different expectations for people based on their gender. Rather than writing about gender, it occurred to me to write in the first person without ever identifying the main character’s gender and just let people see for themselves if Sandy’s gender mattered to them. From the very beginning, I knew my main character was both male and female and played all scenes and dialogues through for both as I was writing.


Q: Tell us a bit about your writing routine.
I tend to wake up early and write before anyone else is up. But I tell my husband that I’m always working, even when it looks like I’m just reading, sleeping or doing nothing, I’m always thinking about my characters and developing new ideas. I carry a little spiral notebook with me everywhere so I can jot things down whenever I’m feeling suddenly inspired. I keep a journal for whatever novel I’m working on at the time, but most of my actual writing is done at my computer at home while everyone else is asleep or at work and school.


Q: From your bio, its apparent that you've worked in the field of child centric social work for a long time... Did any of the incidents you've come across influence the writing of this story? Or did any of them find they're way into the story?
My work as a prosecutor and teacher definitely played an important role in this story. From the Socratic questions posed by Mr. Conaway and the sexual assault itself to abusing alcohol as a numbing and coping mechanism. On the one hand the story is depressingly realistic, on the other I think it’s encouraging for teens to know that no matter what happens you can find a way through it.


Q: Today, there are a lot of support systems in place for victims of abuse. Do you think they are enough or is there room for improvement?
There are some excellent support groups for victims, but society as a whole still has a tendency to blame the victims and try to minimize the effects of sexual assault. We need support groups that also educate the general public and raise our awareness of what sexual assault is and how to deal with it.


Okay, now for the fun stuff!

Q: Favourite TV show and movie?
My favorite TV show would be the old M*A*S*H reruns and my favorite movie is “My Cousin Vinny.”


Q: Milk or dark chocolate?
Dark. No contest.


Q: Favourite author and book(s)?
My favorite book growing up was A Wrinkle in Time by Madeline L’Engle. (You may recall that Sandy was a boy in that book). My current favorite young adult author is John Green. I’ve read and loved every one of his books and just wish he would learn to write and publish as fast as I can read. My all-time favorite author is probably Barbara Kingsolver. I listened to the her audiobooks “The Lacuna” and “Flight Behavior” and especially enjoyed the fact that they were read by her.


Q: Vampires or werewolves (of you are a part of that debate, that is)?
You won’t find me in any undead camp. I do like Greek Mythology, though, and that is an important part of my next book, Just Myrto, which Luminis Books has slated for release next spring.


Thank you so much for taking the time to interview me and connect me with your readers. It’s been a pleasure to join you at I Read, Ergo I Write!

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4 comments :

  1. I love how you wrote this review as a letter to Sandy. Thank you so much for reading Maybe I Will and giving me the opportunity to answer some of your questions, too (especially the fun ones!)

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    1. Aw I'm glad you like it! And it was a pleasure writing it, because the reading experience was truly an eye opening one :)

      Yay! I'm glad you had fun! Thanks for stopping by!

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  2. Wow, this sounds like a really great book! I worked at a police department for a while supervising sex offenders, worked in a district attorneys office during law school and now work on family law cases and this seems right up my alley! I love reading work that is different from others and love the idea that the MC's gender is never revealed. I think so many people could really learn a lot from this book.

    Great review!

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  3. Fantastic review and interview, Fahima; I love your creative approach. I’m so glad you loved MAYBE I WILL, and that bloggers are getting so much out of it. Thank you for joining us on this tour, and please take a moment to cross-post to Amazon and GoodReads when you have the time. Also don’t forget to enter the Rafflecopter and random commenter contests!

    Em

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